On past few month, I was wondering what is my life's target...Everyone have their own dream to pursue includes me. I din realize that actually when u wanna realize that dream, it' really really hard...becoz u not the one who cares,especially u will make the people around u cares too.... On last few month, I was very busy for my working life. That is a good experience for me to learn. In the middle, I have experience the hardship between me and him.Because of some family problems. I know I very greedy whatever I also wan. I try to ignore the rumors between us. Until I really cant bear for it coz I know I dont have so much time to stay here. Sorry for my irresposible for that nite. I really really make him very angry I was nt ever seen him before. Tat nite I still dunno I was wrong and I keep argue that he not care for me... Actually I think he is nt responsible and childish. But I am the one who done this and make him feel disappointed, sad and irresponsible. Actually he not so bad... he is a good guy and he not just left me alone.
I was cry after that... I really very regret for this..ALL of this ...Actually I very very miss him after I reached UK. Because of me, I have to pursue my dream and I should not force him like this. The whole day he din smile at all. "Am I wrong?" I keep ask myself. He though I come here for fun, actually not. When i was preparing for coming uk, I really spends a lot and sacrifice rush here rush there..Really make me crazy. Y do it last minutes? I come here is for study,,,not for fun. I was argue with him for the whole time inside the car...Tat time I really wish to dont leave malaysia. I already lost the one time chance last time. No choice this time I have to leave. I not independent gal that you think, sometimes I also need care for me. I dont wan what rich bf or others.
I really not used to it here...here is very gd to relax. Maybe I used to it the busy life. I love to hang out rather stay at home...but it depends on the lifestyle here. I couldn't adopt it...Miss Miss Miss....Have to adjust me to the study life mode. That is the distance and time differences between us. I know he still not forgive me. Today morning suddenly think back that what he spoken to me...I know he said for my own good.
tend wedding. Very happy can get 2gather with the high school which din meet few years..But luckily bcoz of this wedding, it make it many good things happening in my life..I am seriously saying like this.Wish v can meet every quarter of year, and sharing the living life recently and update.So most happiest i think is all those children and my bride & groom on tat day...Wish they can stay sweet forever and wish can born a new baby soon~~~Our ji mui gang's games session can be said successfully done...It was a funny, excited and nervous experience never encounter b4.It bring many lucks after getting through my hard time..The past is belong to past..it doesn't make sense now.I hope that I belong to u now and in d future too...Keeping a happiness just as simple as that.Always beside u.No matter what u done b4, who r u in the past.It is no more important to me.Coz life is short. We cant waste time on refresh on those old memory tat was pretty hurting u...wat we can do now is create a new memory for our life til ends. I just wan to be urside...U r not alone.relationship is a lifetime commitment,i do hope that u have the same thought as me.The moment u said "I do"..it so touching....
