Im not a pretty girl

haizzz, why de god not fair to me...my condition is turn very bad now....
really really thks Dr.christina chea helping me...she is a really nice nice Dr since never been seen...last time actually can cured many problems on my face...but i am not heard what Dr. said...wrongly use product..then my face become very serious...so now i change another treatment...i hope i can continue doing de treatment..Dr. knows i have financial prob..she is very kind to give me a good term...working part time now..
why other ppl having good skin..not spend so much money on that time...i really hope i cn get my skin cured soon on this year..it is need time..it is oso due to my hormone prob -in balance...why pretty girl can own their love...but im very very hard 2 get a love....

my 20th memeroable, suprise, crying, sadness touching, happy birthday"(replace 221208)

ME cut de birthday!!!

Since my childhood,in my impression, my family will celebrate wit me....but until last year.. i felt that i dun wan celebrate..bcoz de DoB dun hv any meaning 2 me..i dun know why i feel like that...maybe im thinking too much...

Actually, i dun hv any high expectation for that things..jz hv a cake can celebrate liao..hehe...Dis year...i oso feel that dun wan 2 celebrate anymore...maybe dun hv frenz celebrate wit me gua...i wish my birthday can skipped on that day...coz i dun know how to "du guo"... maybe dun hv such such bff , no bf (joke) to celebr wit me...haizzzz

i know that ur guys no free to accompany me...my style is very simple..i appreciate is de friendship..not de materials things....

my feeling at 2day(221208)...
B4 12.00am...receive many B'D comment fr frenzs
12.00am..got a few fren send blessing sms 2 me
aft 2.00am..slepping time..."cant sleep at de whole night"-dun know why
7.30am...wake up
8.30am..having class..coming lately n got test summore..get very lowest mark
1.00pm...i very disappointed wit "Sn" them...actually v planning go jusco to eat lunch...i jz wanna hv a lunch wit them..no demand anymore...but lastly they eat wit other ppl..coz she thought that im no free go wit them..(many reason)..i hv another appointment wit others...actually is no one...at last i only they misunderstanding...

summore my fren "LY" said some undesireable things 2 me...make me very unhappy...

6.00pm...bac home...
6.30pm..i try to call my mum..coz b4 that i cant buy de bus ticket go bac jb...i cant my mum..she din pick up..then after that she call me n scold me abt de incidents..i cant buy d ticket...then she "gai my hp"...morever she din said any thing 2 me...on that time i feel very angry,bad tempered, mood, n summore crying at all....
7.00pm..very very tired,,go sleep a while...i dun hv any expectation on my frenz that will celebrate wit me...bad mood...bad mood n bad mood...(that why on that i not wish 2 get anymore o it..jz wanna d time go faster...
8.00pm..internet n watch "ju gong bao hei"
10.00pm..go down eat dinner wit hsemate...i really satisfy...xin mai yi zhu..can go eat wit them..at old town..after that my fmum call my hp..n said "mei mei, sheng ri kuai le".. i really really feel very comfort...sorry mum...im not hv intention 2 let ur angry.....
11.30pm..after finish eat d dinner...when im bac 2 home... when i open de door..i feel very strange why very "gelap" at the whole hse...yuan lai...they are standing behind de door...n start singing de B'D songs 2 me....im very suprising n very blur...jz feel very touching on that time..my hsemate give me last minute surprise b4 12.ooam..n they oso take de cake in front of me...very "sia dao"..on that time..really touching til crying...hemhem

anyway i really thks for those sending comment 2 me on frenster, facebook,(know me or dun know me) or whatever ...include smsing....i very appreciate for those kindness 2 me... early n last minutes blessing...

especially thks wen huey,xiao mei mei, gui fang,yee han, guan ,kam (hsemate)....those give me blessings...jia xin, pei shan n many more oso not beside me...

many many more feeling..dun know how 2 describe

lastly,thks "my dear bro"thks give me support n ur present ..haha...ur is my best,nice loved "ge ge"

lastly again..make a wish
1.every1 happy always
2."me"become more pretty "
3.every 1 can get their happiness..(include me)
4..every 1 be health
5.respect mama n papa

im so greedy

the end...

to be continued...upload photo later..

today i learn how to be careful when.....

被伤害过的人，都害怕付出
i agree wit this phares...it is very meaningful to me. i dun know why ppl always wear a mask n not truly, be honest to treat ppl...i know this world is very realistic..all is talk about "xian shi"...i really cant find a person tat can be nice with u...is it im not a pretty person..."wai bian" is really important meh?tis is a question mark always on my mind...

2day im being cheated by somebody...i dun know whether is cheating or other else...in my dictonary, i really cant believe the guys especially is good looking 1.why u guys "u think u very 'shuai' can cheat ppl..damn hate it...im super duper hate this feeling...

so i dun wan be the foolish... i wan become more confident n changing myself...i wanna cheating bac to ur...i wan prove it...

2day is being cheated small amount of money...but that is buy a lesson....nx time wil remember how to do...i really angry wit that person who serve me 1...after that only realize is being cheated...i think im a stupid stupid person la....really believe what they saying...

so i must be put effort for myself...let us see who is de winner.........haha

change in myself

Day 1, 2
yesterday, i decide 2 to change my life...tat is nobody know this..i wanna plan 2 do this very long time ago..but i finding more information to do that....yesterday, i did a procedures called micronee....it is can improve my skin's condition...

after i do the treatment...i really scared n put me a shock...dont know how to do...i dun know my decicision is right o not....I really wanna cry on tat time...but the console me....coz only see my skin is bleeding....i really scared plus no eat anything....after tat me become ill...de whole body dun hv energy...i dun know iz a beauty is important to a girll....The Dr. said my condition is ok...after 3days....now is the 2nd day...i waiting for the result...u dun know how de feeling is going to be...all ppl look at me...my reddish face after doing the treatment...my face like kenal orang pukul...i reaaly think very long time to make dis decision...

my mum oso dun know me...to do this..she always said after u work...only do...i dun wanna wearing scar to facing ppl...i dun know why jz only me facing this problem since my teenagers time...

when i looked at my face after doing the treatment...i really shocked...jz only 2 face...when at the process, i will painful, painful n painful.but no choice wo...i hv 2 bear the pain..."no pain no gain"fr malaysianbabe forum...at tat timesi really scared...i told myself whether i doing a wrong things...my face looked very swallow n redness...even i hv financial problem, but now i pay de half payment only...

when i come bac my home, then oso scared my hsemmates looked at my face...but jz the few days only..the feeling cant imagine by other ppl...i really hope tat can see good result...since Dr, do a hard work for me...i jz wanna to write my feeling right now...i really feel very pain when i clean my f at toilet...even cry out.......

i dun know what effort i put oso useless...jz wanna a beauty only...y other can hv a nice look...even dun understand...while im doing de treatment...my brain is blank...n pray for god...thks gods...give me support...

i belive when u willing to put effort...u willl get the result...

Prince-Lolipop

This is Prince from lolipop(taiwan)...so leng zhai...

yu jun n yenpei convo

Yujun, yenpei's convo

Dis photo including me, yujun n yenpei...Dis photo taken after the graduation ceremony...nx year is my turn....u got see tat...the rose plower is made by myself...i send them de roses as a gift for their graduate...But dis photo.. i looked very tired,exhausted...not nice la...very regret cant take many photo...sis de one of including 3 of us...haizzz

Today(13July 2008), this day is their important day...diploma graduate day...which is also including "Three big day"...which are "Graduation day",Wedding Day, Give Birth of 1st child Day...(haha...i guess so)....I am her BBF(Best Friend Forever)-sister since our childhood day...

That day, Yu jun was very happy coz her dearest had come to attend her graduation ceremony...

In that morning, I wake up very early...coz need 2 prepare(make up, wear nicely)....i go the hostel to meet my fren...yujun n yenpei...they are waiting me at yujun room....

After tat, her mum come n find us at hostel, i saw her mum bring a bundle of "daisy" flowers... i felt that she must be very happy coz her mum can come...Her mum take bus from jb at that morning n reach at afternoon.So touching!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ME n Yujun

Cute, cute bear n daisy

haihai..is me la