my diploma convocation 2009 (Part 1) to be continued

this is the photo "taking the cert from Our Menteri "Ong Kah Choo"

Today is my convo...i wake up in the early morning..about 6am...i wan make up and and "ta ban"...haha...but I reached ady 8am..i am very rushed to wear my gown and also rushed to find my frens oso...meet dee hsia, sin nee them...dont know how to wear the heavy gown....today,very shameful la..coz my fake eyelashes drop liao..nx time i dun wan buy the cheaper things...Inside college hall, graduation ceremony...thks for my beloved frenz and family..i am very happy to see ur all coming for my convo...today really is a tired day...

Today i am saw many old frenz and my best friend...finally can graduate loh....

me, jia xin and dee hsia

gui fang,dee hsia

wen huey and me....

whr we looked at?sky?haha

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me, and pretty babe frenz...jia xin

we all take photo 2gather

my bro,me,mum,hui xian

my bro,me ,mum,But less my dad..??whr r u?? dad not free coming to my convo..he want to work...sad...T_T

1,2,3 cahhh..smile!!!say cheese

my bro, mum, me ,jiaxin...this is the photo taken by shannon's camera

wen huey,me, gui fang

my best frenz: yu jun...hou ji moi

after coming bac to home,take photo for my formal wear look

me and my flower

me again...

after out from the college hall, jz finish the graduation ceremony

to be continue...uploading later

do ur agree behind beauty, ur must sacrifies sumtin

On 10 Julai 2009, i go to continue my course of treatment...It is really pain and redness than last few time...That day i went to the clinic i always visited...I really dun like the nurse's attitude.They asked me make the payment 1st..B4 the procedures...They really looked down on ppl who is not able to pay the settlement...First few time,they really smiled on ur and treat u very nicely...

That day, i am not feeling well during the time i went thr, I was getting flu. After i come back, I was start feeling not well...i felt that i was falling on sick...Really feeling good plus after doing that

Yesterday, i really cant tahan...when my mum call me, i was crying in the phone...she said she dun have money to give me..1 week give me rm100 only...i think that is not enough which ppl are staying at kl...all is need money...I told my mum that "i dun wan continue study,if it is really hard to give me living expenses...

That kinds of feeling is really not good, when ppl looked down on ur dun have money...Unexpected, some of my housemate didn't back hometown dis week..So i very shy to face them...

Be brave, venice...u can do it...must be confidence oin urself when 1 person living at outside...that must be sacrifies

I wishes that my condition can be better and recover soon..

i hate myself

long time din write blog ady..many mnay things wan to write at here...i know my english grammar is not good...but still can improved ma...写华语比较容易明白。我很不喜欢那些每次批评人家的不是。现在一边读书，一边做工。真辛苦。不知要向谁诉苦。现在的程度越来越深。我很怕适应不来。心里很纳闷。现在很开心我的问题有点进展。希望能很快就没事。

真羡慕她们（我的朋友,哈哈）拥有小小的幸希望你们幸福啦..我吗？还没找到。。哈哈。。应该没人会会看到。我应该回去那边吗？我不知道。很闷啊。。。。后悔。。。后悔。。。后悔。。。在你的字典里没有后悔这个字。。。

i hate myself

Im not a pretty girl

haizzz, why de god not fair to me...my condition is turn very bad now....
really really thks Dr.christina chea helping me...she is a really nice nice Dr since never been seen...last time actually can cured many problems on my face...but i am not heard what Dr. said...wrongly use product..then my face become very serious...so now i change another treatment...i hope i can continue doing de treatment..Dr. knows i have financial prob..she is very kind to give me a good term...working part time now..
why other ppl having good skin..not spend so much money on that time...i really hope i cn get my skin cured soon on this year..it is need time..it is oso due to my hormone prob -in balance...why pretty girl can own their love...but im very very hard 2 get a love....

my 20th memeroable, suprise, crying, sadness touching, happy birthday"(replace 221208)

ME cut de birthday!!!

Since my childhood,in my impression, my family will celebrate wit me....but until last year.. i felt that i dun wan celebrate..bcoz de DoB dun hv any meaning 2 me..i dun know why i feel like that...maybe im thinking too much...

Actually, i dun hv any high expectation for that things..jz hv a cake can celebrate liao..hehe...Dis year...i oso feel that dun wan 2 celebrate anymore...maybe dun hv frenz celebrate wit me gua...i wish my birthday can skipped on that day...coz i dun know how to "du guo"... maybe dun hv such such bff , no bf (joke) to celebr wit me...haizzzz

i know that ur guys no free to accompany me...my style is very simple..i appreciate is de friendship..not de materials things....

my feeling at 2day(221208)...
B4 12.00am...receive many B'D comment fr frenzs
12.00am..got a few fren send blessing sms 2 me
aft 2.00am..slepping time..."cant sleep at de whole night"-dun know why
7.30am...wake up
8.30am..having class..coming lately n got test summore..get very lowest mark
1.00pm...i very disappointed wit "Sn" them...actually v planning go jusco to eat lunch...i jz wanna hv a lunch wit them..no demand anymore...but lastly they eat wit other ppl..coz she thought that im no free go wit them..(many reason)..i hv another appointment wit others...actually is no one...at last i only they misunderstanding...

summore my fren "LY" said some undesireable things 2 me...make me very unhappy...

6.00pm...bac home...
6.30pm..i try to call my mum..coz b4 that i cant buy de bus ticket go bac jb...i cant my mum..she din pick up..then after that she call me n scold me abt de incidents..i cant buy d ticket...then she "gai my hp"...morever she din said any thing 2 me...on that time i feel very angry,bad tempered, mood, n summore crying at all....
7.00pm..very very tired,,go sleep a while...i dun hv any expectation on my frenz that will celebrate wit me...bad mood...bad mood n bad mood...(that why on that i not wish 2 get anymore o it..jz wanna d time go faster...
8.00pm..internet n watch "ju gong bao hei"
10.00pm..go down eat dinner wit hsemate...i really satisfy...xin mai yi zhu..can go eat wit them..at old town..after that my fmum call my hp..n said "mei mei, sheng ri kuai le".. i really really feel very comfort...sorry mum...im not hv intention 2 let ur angry.....
11.30pm..after finish eat d dinner...when im bac 2 home... when i open de door..i feel very strange why very "gelap" at the whole hse...yuan lai...they are standing behind de door...n start singing de B'D songs 2 me....im very suprising n very blur...jz feel very touching on that time..my hsemate give me last minute surprise b4 12.ooam..n they oso take de cake in front of me...very "sia dao"..on that time..really touching til crying...hemhem

anyway i really thks for those sending comment 2 me on frenster, facebook,(know me or dun know me) or whatever ...include smsing....i very appreciate for those kindness 2 me... early n last minutes blessing...

especially thks wen huey,xiao mei mei, gui fang,yee han, guan ,kam (hsemate)....those give me blessings...jia xin, pei shan n many more oso not beside me...

many many more feeling..dun know how 2 describe

lastly,thks "my dear bro"thks give me support n ur present ..haha...ur is my best,nice loved "ge ge"

lastly again..make a wish
1.every1 happy always
2."me"become more pretty "
3.every 1 can get their happiness..(include me)
4..every 1 be health
5.respect mama n papa

im so greedy

the end...

to be continued...upload photo later..

today i learn how to be careful when.....

被伤害过的人，都害怕付出
i agree wit this phares...it is very meaningful to me. i dun know why ppl always wear a mask n not truly, be honest to treat ppl...i know this world is very realistic..all is talk about "xian shi"...i really cant find a person tat can be nice with u...is it im not a pretty person..."wai bian" is really important meh?tis is a question mark always on my mind...

2day im being cheated by somebody...i dun know whether is cheating or other else...in my dictonary, i really cant believe the guys especially is good looking 1.why u guys "u think u very 'shuai' can cheat ppl..damn hate it...im super duper hate this feeling...

so i dun wan be the foolish... i wan become more confident n changing myself...i wanna cheating bac to ur...i wan prove it...

2day is being cheated small amount of money...but that is buy a lesson....nx time wil remember how to do...i really angry wit that person who serve me 1...after that only realize is being cheated...i think im a stupid stupid person la....really believe what they saying...

so i must be put effort for myself...let us see who is de winner.........haha