should i improve my make-up skill?

i looked forward to learn or go for class to improve my make-up..i wish can find cheaper resources to learn for it...recently found mac is a very good product among the others product....but the prices is super expensive...for one brush worth RM100++

im very upset becoz somebody comment my make-up skill or wrongly use product...haizzz..i wish can continue my treatment on following month..now i cant afford to pay it...a lot of things i wanna buy for it..such as digital camera and so on.....fucX..po kai liao.......
i dun care wat ppl said...i jz wanna looking good....my hair rebonding and colouring haven done yet.....
be patient...do 1 by1

2day my mind still start going wrongly and confused how to decide for several matters...i dun like ppl very show off in front others...they dun even think and feel "how is ur feeling?"it is very uncomfortable for me...forget it..it maybe i thinking too much....but at that moment (when ur very helpless n alone), i cant forget forever in my life.....even i wan to cry out...in other people's view, they will think it is small matter...but in my mind, im very relied on every word u said to me...it will hurts me alot.

my "not bad" sem break,..

{me}

[i just went to Singapore to participate my cousin wedding]

[romantic wedding couple]

[me so dumb]

[take pic at the side of swimming pool]

[2nd pose]

[so sharp..the spotlight]

[guess is who? ...is my mum's back]

[this is the special small gift given to all the guest]

[candle light...so romance]

FOOD

[lobster n some more got sushi...special]

[kinsashi japanese restaurant...so expensive]

[this plate of sushi need RM10++]

magazine & make -up accessories

[city bella magazine]

[i bought my new majolica eyeliner]

[moon cake festival >

[desaru 1 day trip]

[.....so relaxing]

[blue sky, white cloud]

[after exam go shopping with frenz]

[me]

[gui fang]

[both of us]

[gui ling gao]

food..food..food

[yummy...yummy]

[kitchen? not? is a fashion shop called kitchen]