On past few month, I was wondering what is my life's target...Everyone have their own dream to pursue includes me. I din realize that actually when u wanna realize that dream, it' really really hard...becoz u not the one who cares,especially u will make the people around u cares too.... On last few month, I was very busy for my working life. That is a good experience for me to learn. In the middle, I have experience the hardship between me and him.Because of some family problems. I know I very greedy whatever I also wan. I try to ignore the rumors between us. Until I really cant bear for it coz I know I dont have so much time to stay here. Sorry for my irresposible for that nite. I really really make him very angry I was nt ever seen him before. Tat nite I still dunno I was wrong and I keep argue that he not care for me... Actually I think he is nt responsible and childish. But I am the one who done this and make him feel disappointed, sad and irresponsible. Actually he not so bad... he is a good guy and he not just left me alone.
I was cry after that... I really very regret for this..ALL of this ...Actually I very very miss him after I reached UK. Because of me, I have to pursue my dream and I should not force him like this. The whole day he din smile at all. "Am I wrong?" I keep ask myself. He though I come here for fun, actually not. When i was preparing for coming uk, I really spends a lot and sacrifice rush here rush there..Really make me crazy. Y do it last minutes? I come here is for study,,,not for fun. I was argue with him for the whole time inside the car...Tat time I really wish to dont leave malaysia. I already lost the one time chance last time. No choice this time I have to leave. I not independent gal that you think, sometimes I also need care for me. I dont wan what rich bf or others.
I really not used to it here...here is very gd to relax. Maybe I used to it the busy life. I love to hang out rather stay at home...but it depends on the lifestyle here. I couldn't adopt it...Miss Miss Miss....Have to adjust me to the study life mode. That is the distance and time differences between us. I know he still not forgive me. Today morning suddenly think back that what he spoken to me...I know he said for my own good.
